I’m having a little trouble with coding today. Mostly cause I’m still in mania, and focusing on what I’m supposed to do is tricky. I’m trying to be productive today. Somehow my thinking is that productivity is doing more in less time, which isn’t true. Multitasking is a means where several things will be given a half-assed effort instead of focusing on one task at a time with total effort. I’m unsure how to improve my productivity while in mania. It scares me that mania eventually leads to me being depressed once I’m off of this. But now, productivity. How can I improve this now?
Productivity is a system that enforces intentional behavior but has so many rules that it is overwhelming. This can lead to me procrastinating or constantly looking for other distractions. I need to eliminate what is on my plate so I can focus on what I need to focus on. Right now I don’t have anything on my plate. However, I have an errand that needs to be run later, laundry that I need to finish folding and putting away, and I still have yet to eat today. My mind won’t stop racing with things that I need to do. This makes it hard to simplify the task of coding. I will look at the entirety of what I need to code instead of breaking it down into smaller tasks. I guess I can make a to-do list, which I haven’t done in ages, to simplify things. Another rule for productivity is to delegate. To release control of less valuable work than the time you would spend doing it. I can’t really delegate any of the work I need to get done. I struggle with delegation. Oh! I can delegate making lunch to Karissa; now to think of what I want for lunch. When I’m in mania, it’s easy not to eat cause I never feel hungry.
I will check the mail now to see if I need to go to the post office. Then come home and code. Then finish putting laundry away. Oh, I should eat first. Ugh, I need to shut my brain off so I can get things done. I can’t think straight. This post is probably all over the place.
Alright, I have Karissa making me a sandwich. Now to go check the mail.
