I completed my therapy homework during lunch today by watching a YouTube video on Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). This psychological condition arises from prolonged exposure to trauma, often of an interpersonal nature, such as childhood abuse, domestic violence, and chronic neglect. Unlike PTSD, which is generally linked to a single traumatic event, C-PTSD develops from repeated and sustained trauma, leaving profound emotional and psychological scars. While I understand the concept, I find it challenging to fully absorb the information and articulate my thoughts about the video or how it relates to my experiences.
Watching the video often made me zone out. I felt as though I was dissociating as they discussed various traumas that contributed to C-PTSD. I found myself needing to pause the video frequently to reconnect with reality. I know I’ll have to discuss this in therapy on Wednesday, though I’d prefer not to. Talking about trauma is difficult, even the smaller experiences that lead to larger ones.
Last weekend was quite relaxing. Tommy and I spent some time on our computers; I played Portal 2 again and made it to chapter six. The game has nine chapters in total. Kel had to work and was at her dad’s house on Sunday. We also ventured into the city on Saturday to Costco to pick up my new glasses, which I like. Everything appears much sharper and clearer now. Tommy has been eyeing the Christmas trees, so I’m unsure if he plans to buy a new one.
Alex is currently watching the show Lost, which I don’t need to catch up on since he’s been providing me with a daily play-by-play. As for coding, today has been productive. I’ve focused on CSS and its various text styles and terminology. There are so many properties to learn that it’s quite overwhelming to memorize them all. I know I shouldn’t bother trying to memorize them all, but I’d like to try and remember a lot of it. I keep thinking I should write notes, but that will take so long and there would be so much information to write down.
