I have twenty minutes until my therapy session, and I’m uncertain whether I want to do therapy today. I know we will discuss C-PTSD, and I might end up zoning out. I shouldn’t be so negative; therapy can be beneficial. While addressing such a heavy topic as C-PTSD can feel overwhelming, it also presents an opportunity to make progress and find some relief.
Next week is Thanksgiving, and I’m excited to see all the kids together. I’m also looking forward to baking. I wish I could make scones. I’ve only attempted scones once before, and it didn’t go well. I can’t remember why the recipe failed, but I probably didn’t read it carefully enough. I’m eager to try again.
I’m having some trouble with my computer. The first issue is that it struggles to turn on after being completely powered off. This could be related to the power supply or possibly the power button, although I suspect it’s more likely the power supply. Additionally, today my monitor failed to display Windows. This might indicate a cable that needs replacing. I’m hesitant to blame the video card just yet, especially since the monitor keeps showing a “no signal” message. However, if troubleshooting reveals that both the monitor and cables are functioning properly, the issue could indeed lie with the video card not sending any signal. It’s quite frustrating.
Therapy went well today. We discussed C-PTSD and how it impacts me, particularly the strategies I can use to stay grounded when I start to dissociate. We also touched on Thanksgiving and my parents. I expressed how much I miss my dad and my desire for a better relationship with my mom. My feelings about her are complicated; while I wish I could reach out and say hello, I know deep down that it’s not feasible.
