I feel alright, though I’m experiencing a bit of anxiety. Today, there’s something about coding that appeals to me, even if I’m struggling with it; it feels like a safe pursuit, like I’m engaging in exactly what I’m meant to be doing. I’ve locked up the house, as my anxiety is a bit heightened. I have therapy coming up, and I find that I hesitate to discuss my feelings. Articulating them makes them feel more real, which can be overwhelming. I know it might not make much sense; my mind doesn’t feel entirely clear at the moment.
Despite that, I’m managing to be okay today. I have my hot tea, I’m absorbed in coding, and I’m trying to maintain my own space. I realize this may not fully encapsulate what “being okay” means, but it’s where I am. I feel quite vulnerable today.
I’ve been searching for a backpack as well—something suitable for our cruise that I can use while exploring different destinations. I’ve been looking at options from REI and Fjallraven, both of which offer great choices. Right now, when I find myself frustrated with coding, I take a break to browse for backpacks. Tommy has also shared a few that I really like.
Now, I need to get ready for therapy and finish my lunch, which happens to be a taco.
Therapy went well today. We discussed anxiety and various topics that I’m not quite comfortable sharing online, but overall, it was a productive session. I’m still feeling a bit anxious at the moment. Lexi is on her way to the city now, which makes me a little uneasy. I know she’ll be fine, but I can’t help but worry about her. She has a theater presentation to give. I’ll be seeing her on Saturday when she begins her Spring Break.
Daylight Savings Time starts on Sunday, meaning we lose an hour of sleep. While some people have strong feelings about it, I don’t have much to say. I do appreciate the longer days, though.
I made spaghetti sauce since we’re having spaghetti for dinner tonight. The sauce is currently simmering on the stove. I made a list of the backpacks Tommy and I were looking at today.
