I’m stumped on what to write about today. The coding work I did today went smoothly, and I’m pleased that I’m gaining more confidence in areas that have previously caused me confusion, such as the ‘for-of’ loop, ternary operators, and the usage of methods like ‘push()’ and ‘repeat().’
I’m caring for the dogs with Chris out of the house today. Thankfully, they were well-behaved and content, taking a nice long nap after lunch and enjoying the warm weather outside for most of the day.
I often feel the need to declutter my belongings. Strangely, these urges to clean out my stuff always seem to come at inconvenient times. It’s almost as if my brain craves a break or a change of environment. I wonder if it’s related to my ADHD. I’ve been considering whether ADHD medication could be beneficial for me. We experimented with one medication, but it significantly lowered my blood pressure. As a result, I’m at a loss for how to manage my ADHD. It can be challenging to concentrate at times because of my restlessness. I often find myself moving around or taking breaks to walk around. Taking care of the dogs provides a welcome distraction for me. I also did some laundry today, although I haven’t gotten around to putting the clothes away yet.
Last night, Tommy added a new book to my Kindle called “Fourth Wing.” I need to start reading it. Perhaps I should finish “Safe People” first so that I don’t feel overwhelmed by all the reading I need to do. I need to understand how some people can read multiple books at once. I prefer to finish one book before starting another. It just feels more satisfying to me to finish something.
I have some more thoughts about “Safe People.” The book talks about finding safe people in a search for spiritual survival. But what if I’m not looking for anything spiritual? I just want to know how to be a safe person. The book also mentions, “The path to safety is God’s path.” Does that mean I have to become religious to find safe people? It’s okay to be spiritual, but one should not have to be religious to find safety in people. I believe everyone has an “unsafe” quality, and a safe person is aware of this and works to be a better person. However, the book doesn’t discuss how to become safe or aware of these “unsafe” qualities. This book is perplexing. I don’t mind when my friends or family discuss their beliefs in God as long as I don’t feel judged for not being spiritual. But this book suggests that if I’m not deeply connected with God, I’m in trouble. Why was this book recommended to me? What am I supposed to get out of this book? I feel guilty that I may not get what I’m supposed to get out of this book.
This book gets me riled up. I think I will put the clothes away and read another book tonight.
