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My therapist asked today, ‘What holds me back from talking?’ The easy answer is that I freeze. I blank out and suddenly feel like I want the earth to open up and swallow me. The more complicated answer is that I fear the reactions of what I’m about to say. And it’s irrational cause I…

Happy December! This is such a busy month. I’d love to keep this month low-key. We haven’t really planned anything for Christmas dinner yet. We are throwing in ideas but nothing set in stone. I should plan on what cookies we are going to make. I will ask around on what kind of cookies everyone…

I should write today since I don’t normally write on the weekends. I have a sinus appointment on the 7th and for some reason I’m all panicky over it. There is no reason to be but yet, here we are. I’m almost done with the book, The Ex Hex. It’s such an adorably, funny book….

This last week has flown by. I started baking pies last Tuesday. I made pecan, pumpkin pie, a gluten free pumpkin pie and an apple pie and a gluten free apple pie. The gluten free pies are for Alex since he can’t have wheat. Wednesday, Kel and I made some sides and I started the…

Thanksgiving week! This week will be busy. Mostly of cooking sides and baking before Thursday. Lexi comes home tomorrow! I’m so excited to see her. Wednesday, Kel, Tom and I are going over to a friend’s house for a ‘Friendsgiving.’ So I will have Thanksgiving dinner a day before Thanksgiving. 🙂 I think for this…

٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ After yet again having my computer be shut off by Merlin, I changed the setting of the power button. I worked on the computer today. And that was it. I don’t feel that I was very productive. Oh, I had to call USAA and cancel the coverage of my Bug that is no more….

I have medication to pick up at Walmart. Got my last notice today. Maybe tonight I can get it. I get my settlement soon. Everything with the car is done. I’m thinking of saving the money. I will look for a car later. I’m not sure what I want in a car. Maybe something with…

Well, my car’s title has been mailed off and I have gotten everything out of my car and released it to the collision shop. The insurance is picking up my car on Monday. Then they will give me my settlement money. I’m sad to see my Bug go. There are a lot of memories with…

I heard from the car insurance this morning, and yes as I thought, they are going to total out my car. It’s sad and I’m not sure we can replace my Bug, but I feel that this will be ok. Is this toxic positivity? Maybe. But I’m feeling the loss of the car. But we…

Today has been so hard mentally. I didn’t do much of anything. I was able to get laundry done. Now, put away is another story. I tried to focus but it just wasn’t working. Therapy was good today. We talked a bit about anxiety and autism. We also talked about the holidays and my stress…