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I’m in the University library today. I went with Tommy this morning to his doctor’s appointment, and instead of backtracking back home, I came here. Little curious about how the kids are doing with the puppy today, but I’m sure they are fine, and the puppy is okay. I should have brought my sweater today…

We have a puppy! His name is Merlin and he is a mix Malinois and Australian Shepherd. He’s very cute! Both Mimi and Merlin are sleeping under my chair at the moment. Karissa had Merlin most of today since I was busy cleaning and doing errands. Having a puppy is almost like having a newborn….

It’s been a long weekend/week. Our weekend started off well. We left last Friday for Colorado and stayed overnight in Colorado City before heading up to Denver Saturday morning. We saw the Angels vs Colorado Rockies. The Angels played a great game. They had 13 runs in the 3rd inning. I swear it was the…

My stomach was so crampy yesterday. I’m not sure what I did to it. It almost feels like light food poisoning but I know I haven’t eaten anything that would have caused it. Today it’s feeling a bit better. I’ve eaten toast today. That’s how much I’ve been babying my stomach. This weekend we are…

I started a new therapist. My anxiety is high over this. I had an appointment today, virtual appointment. It was alright. Although I didn’t feel like talking about my past too much. It’s a good thing he has notes and asked me general questions about them to help. I know I have a lot of…

JavaScript has me confused. I have to spend more time reading up on certain things since the program only gives one example per “section.” I just remembered that I have a few friends that I still need to text back. The introvert in me tends to forget that I need to keep in touch with…

JavaScript was a doozy today. The program goes through a new subject of JavaScript…ok, this is hard to explain. The program will explain something, like ‘for loops’, and it will give one example and give you a problem to solve. Then when you are done with that and test the code, if you get it…

I saw a term today: healthy narcissism. What the hell is that? Are people trying to make this a thing? It’s not a thing. A healthy ego and high self-confidence, and self-regard are not narcissism. If one is not exploiting another, then it is not narcissism. Narcissism is an obsession with the self and an…

I just filed my nails. I haven’t done so in so long. Usually, I just cut them all off, but I decided to take care of my nails for once and make them look pretty. They are still short cause long nails break. And typing with long nails is a pain. I have nail polish;…

As a people pleaser, I wonder if this is a form of manipulation. It occurred to me that maybe I was being as manipulative since my desire to please isn’t always from a desire to please but to protect myself. Is that, at its core, selfish and ultimately manipulative? Since I’m trying to change an…