JavaScript was a doozy today. I’m still trying to understand what I learned today. So I have my notes. My brain is kind of fried at the moment. I don’t even think I actually learned the subjects today. parseInt() and conditional operators are confusing. My car won’t be ready till tomorrow. They ordered the wrong…
Gotta clean
I feel like cleaning. Organizing. I’m coding at the moment and it is a bit challenging. Probably why I feel like cleaning. It’s a procrastination tactic that my brain wants to do to keep it from doing the challenging thing. My desk needs to be organized. It does. I want to clean out my stuff…
Just some random thoughts
Sometimes I just don’t understand my head. I do everything to make sure my mental state is good, but sometimes my mental state can still be unstable. I’ve been anxious all day. I don’t know why. I’m watching a YouTube video on painting to calm my nerves. One day I may take up painting. Maybe….
It’s June!
It’s June! My birthday month! It’s Tommy’s birthday month too. His birthday is before mine. Tommy and I are heading up to see Alexis tonight. She needs food, so we are taking her to Walmart to get her what she needs. We were going to go Friday night, but Tommy got sick. Then we were…
Alaskan Cruise Pt. 2
Cruise to Alaska 2023… Our next destination was Skagway, Alaska. Tommy rented a car and we all went up to Canada to visit Carcross and Whitehorse. I tried poutine. You have to have poutine in Canada. It was good. We did make it back to the ship in time. We were the last one’s to…
Alaska Cruise Pt. 1
Cruise to Alaska 2023… We left the house for our afternoon flight to Seattle. It was a bit of a rush getting out. Our airport here is small and easy to get around. Getting through TSA was pretty quick, but damn is it rushed. Having to take off my belt and shoes and all my…
Memories on steroids
PTSD is like bad memories on steroids. When we experience a traumatic event, our brains get locked into that event almost exclusively emotionally. The brain is having trouble using logic to overwrite the emotional response. We logically know that we are safe and made it out ok. Yet our brain can’t think our way out…
Not focusing today
My focus just wasn’t here today. I did a little coding today, paid some bills and laundry. My mind keeps replaying yesterday’s drama. I’m glad I was there to take control of the truck. I’m ok, and so is Tom and Karissa. But I was scared. I didn’t know what was going on with Tommy…
Tommy’s wild ride…
I found two dresses today. Tom, Karissa and I went down to the city to look for dresses. We started at Kolh’s and ended up at JCPenny. The drive down was dramatic. Tommy was drinking his coffee and he started choking on the coffee. Next thing I notice is that he blacks out. I grabbed…
Another Mother’s Day
It’s almost Mother’s Day. This is such a bittersweet holiday for me. On one hand, I like the holiday. I like being a mom and I get to spend the day with the kids. I like hearing them wish me a happy Mother’s day. On the other hand, I’m reminded of my dysfunctional relationship with…
