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This morning I went to get gas in my car. And my engine light came on while my car was revving while idle. It was so weird. I came home and told Kel what was happening, and she asked if Alex had put my oil cap back on.. cause that was the only thing we…

Happy Monday! I’m listening to coding music. Yes, that is a thing. There is so much to remember when it comes to JavaScript. I have more notes. Tomorrow is the anniversary of Kevin’s death. I can’t believe it has been 19 years. I remember the day well. The week leading up to his funeral is…

I finished reading Love on the Brain. It was an interesting read. It started slow but picked up. It’s one of those reads when you want something fun and not serious. Right now, I’m reading Stephen King’s Fairy Tale. This book captures your interest in the first few pages but goes so slowly. It really…

I finished the HTML portion of Freecodecamp and am now onto Javascript. I’m not sure I can do HTML blindly; maybe I can. It would be a simple site. Javascript makes me nervous. But I can do this! A friend of mine had been going through some rough times and has brought back some memories…

I just got back from dinner shopping. I had to take Alex to the city for his hockey party. Tom and Alex are eating down there. I picked up dinner for me, Kel, and Krissy(Karissa). I feel so restless right now. Like I need to be constantly doing something, I will read after I write…

The library has given me another book to read that was on my ‘holds’ list. I’m a little overwhelmed with three books to read now. The book I read last night, which I’m 75% through, wasn’t one I thought I’d read. Mostly cause I had read reviews, the topic hits a little too close to…

My day has been slow. I watched a few YouTube videos, played Final Fantasy xiv, and read a chapter in Stephen King’s Fairy Tale and Ali Hazelwood’s Love on the Brain. Love on the Brain starts slow but has started picking up slightly. I’m only four chapters in. Some of the characters are annoying and…

I feel disconnected today. Not sure why. It’s Friday and I feel I should be happy about that and excited to start a new project in my coding. I am looking forward to the new project but my mind is elsewhere. Where it is, I’m not sure about. I’ve dissociated twice today. It feels like…

I’m having a little trouble with coding today. Mostly cause I’m still in mania, and focusing on what I’m supposed to do is tricky. I’m trying to be productive today. Somehow my thinking is that productivity is doing more in less time, which isn’t true. Multitasking is a means where several things will be given…

I’m in mania right now. I’ve had adrenaline and high energy all day, which would be weird since I only had 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night. Concentrating and sticking to the task at hand is hard for me right now. My mind is racing from thought to thought. Paranoia. Incredibly powerful intrusive thoughts….