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I’ve been gone from here for a while. My depression has been pretty high lately. The therapist says this would happen since I’m doing EDMR.. which is basically facing all your traumas head-on and learning about ways to cope with them. It’s kind of hard to explain. But bringing everything front and center makes for…

My pen takes wing across the page. That’s how it used to be. I used to tell others that I will never fully give in to the digital age that to which my generation was the first to experience. I accepted records turning into tapes, turning into cds, into mp3s, into streaming. I’ve sort of…

I’m sitting here waiting for the boys to get out of school. I wouldn’t mind them taking the bus home, but they have hockey practice. Well, one has hockey. The other will be driving cause of course, I can’t drive home at night. I’m thinking I need to minimize my stuff again. This time my…

I keep thinking it’s October, but it’s still September. My computer is already decked out in Halloween aesthetic. Does everyone here celebrate Halloween? I do have some friends and family who don’t celebrate it. I believe it’s the act of celebrating the dead or dressing up as witches or devils that somehow let those demons…

Haha! Nah, just working on my phone’s aesthetic and put WordPress onto my phone. ? More later…

I’ve spent a few days wondering what kind of post I want to make. I can’t seem to decide if I’m scared or angry or happy. See, I feel nothing about what happened a few days ago. I mean, I don’t give a rat’s ass about it. At first, I was scared. When I heard…

There is a post sitting in the, I guess it’s called the post area of WordPress. It’s one of my longer posts that takes more thinking on my part. This, right here, is my quick-posting-in-a-few-minutes post. My days have been a bit blurry. Running into one another and spilling into another day. I swear my…

I’m out of matcha tea. This makes me sad. I’m working on my bullet journal for next year. I have to start early cause if I don’t I will get too overwhelmed and not even use it, even though I want to use it. When your black ink pad comes out as red ink… Ok,…

I have been notified (Thomas) that I have not written here in a bit. I just have been feeling the anxiety with writing. So many things have been happening lately, cause ya know, it’s 2020. And those things cause anxiety. This year has been testing my PTSD and anxiety to new levels. So, some things…

Facebook needs to stop showing me shoe ads. I’ve already looked at the shoes, they don’t have my size. I was delusional to regard they would. Carry on. I’m watching a video on Facebook: Seaport Village. If anyone visits San Diego, go visit Seaport Village. It’s my favorite place to go when I lived in…